This position causes you to seek vindication within yourself. Your struggle with the world is the inner struggle between the good and the bad within you; and you are capable of being content with self-approval when you have mastered yourself. If from this point introspection goes deeper, you realize that self approval is not enough, and require that self-approval shall be further served by the approval of others. Your defense against the hardships of life (and life does seem hard to you) lies not in open struggle with it, but in struggle within yourself to make life seem less difficult. This in its worst form results in introversion, withdrawal, brooding, giving up the struggle, and holing up alone to feel sorry for yourself. In its middle form, you fight off the lethargy and the withdrawal and find the key to your problem within yourself. In its advanced and best form, you improve your doleful outlook, redirect your energies outward, discover your virtues and your abilities, end make complete self approval wait till you have won some objective testimony of your worth. This is a difficult position, but being flexible, gives great inner strength. You are moody and tend to fluctuate from heights of being pleased with yourself and the world to depths in which you and everything else is at sixes and sevens. Your reaction to experience is almost wholly subjective: sunshine is shadow if you’re feeling bad; and clouds are harbingers of joy if you’re feeling good. You are one of the people who thinks a rainstorm was sent solely to destroy your outing, and who rebels personally against the weather. In acute form this leads on to delusions of persecution or some minor neurosis. But your capacity for knowing yourself is great, and once you have learned the trick of self-analysis, you can lead your temperament into creative and constructive channels to become one of the most useful members of society.
Grant Lewi
Saturn-Pisces: law-dissolution, island, sand, bank, port, monastery, loss, poverty, ghetto, old people’s home, hospital, prison
You often have a sense of longing or homesickness for something you cannot name or specify, and you may have both a great attraction toward, and fear of, mysticism and parapsychology.
Overcoming feelings of fear, guilt, anxiety, loneliness, or oversensitivity is an important task for you.
Kepler Natal Report